Damn, Bih… you still not done talking? This yo fourth post this month!
I know right? And I still got more after this one, can you believe it? A real #yapper. SADDLE UP, habibis.
Anyway. I wanna talk wellness (my own) and just kinda give myself some space to think about where I’m at and where I’ve been the last few months. I wanted this to be more structured but then I felt like everything was getting too structured (as much as it wasn’t) around me and I decided to just let the release be the release and so here we are: I’m in the middle of moving (and have been since June… I’ve never moved this slow in unpacking in my life… it’s different - reflective of something but I’m still wrapping words around that). I’m setting a lot of goals for what this space could offer me and could offer *The Radical Empath (tm (llc))*. The crystal girlie in me is ready to upgrade and also start adding in tinctures and oils (which I already have been tapping into for my skin but I want to go beyond that). I want to start creating more intentional gatherings (I tend to just let my birthday anchor the hostess in me and I want to use my creative expression through that channel more and also put less pressure on my birthday). And related to the new space but unrelated; I want to start treating pleasure like a right instead of a reward (especially as I find myself in a stronger state of self-assurance lately).
Work-wise (and I say work not just as occupation (though definitely that as well) but as expression of self in daily experience of *effort*), I have some new potential clients on the horizon that could be really cool directional shifts to take my business toward (for example, I’ll be working with a church on lgbtq-related education this October and I’m very excited to see what I learn there). I am finally creating some methodology around outreach that feels good to me so I’m hoping to start pushing for more clients but still be able to move at this pace that I’ve found recently that feels right for me. In addition, I have some dreams of aligning that desire of intentional gatherings WITH my professional goals. I’m going to make some advances in my education and connected opportunities. I want to create spaces as a function of my purpose driven work too. Retreats. Collectives. The ideas are still building but they’re coming along. I want to lean more on my supports so that I can better support others in how I show up to my work. I have some physical health needs I’m going to center — mobility and intentional cooking/eating are a high priority — and I’m stepping back into my fitness experience with new vim right now. The return to my body is feeling soooo good and I’m very excited about it.
I want to really start to embody global citizenship as a birthright and local impact as a connective tissues to that internationality, especially as I approach nuptials in the coming year. I want my future and my family to feel rooted in the world immediately around them AND in the world at large — especially amidst so much global unrest (it’s giving Toph and the Banyan-Grove Tree (iykyk)).
Creating more and writing more have never felt more imperative. And not just these wellness essays… but also for fun. I read too many comics and have too many ideas to not be putting those things to work with more intention (finally). It will result in changes to how I engage socially and even with social media but I am really ready for that. There’s some ways I want to get back into being a child of music; I have been LISTENING to music and now I need to figure out how I can feel like I am also making it?? In small ways. And the big step for this next year is to start to really connect with the empowerment of my ancestry in a ritualized manner. Those are all big long goals and I am releasing myself from the pressure that makes changing or not meeting those goals less satisfying to pursue because I am just excited to invest in me!!!! No pressure just consistency and JOY.
This last few months have called me fully into two aspects of myself that feel more whole than they ever have: Obella as a healer and Obella as a free spirit. A person of community and a man of adventure & creativity. I am sooooo sure of myself about these things. I understand mental and emotional wellness more and more each day. I understand the balance of need to explore who I am and BE who I am. So yeah, the last quarter of the year will be centered on investing in loving myself and loving others with a radical liberated sense of compassion and empathy (obvs) feels like an energetic compass that I am reading better than ever! Hope y’all are feeling it (or start to move toward feeling it) too because it’s been a long time since I’ve felt my nervous system regulate this way and we all deserve to feel this full and free.
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